𝑇𝑤𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑦-𝑓𝑖𝑣𝑒

                                    

                                              
TW: Talking about mental health, drugs and alcohol 
And talks about being SA!
                          
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14th may 2021, 
The day before the fa cup final!
                          
Me and kepa walked into cobham ready for training today, lately I haven't been going to training as my mental health went through the roof, after me and my dad had a massive argument and I was dropped from the team! And my mum went missing for a week but she is thankful home now!
                          
Kepa being the absolute cutest man alive being there for me ever step of the way, he finally had met a couple of my family members, including my step dad who was a twat!
                          
I've never got on with my mum boyfriend as when I was 15-20he was SA me and my mum didn't really care for me when it happened as she was two wrap about with her drugs and alcohol!
                          
Over this past few weeks me and kepa have grown closer, him literally being the only thing what really was holding me together and this moment of time! Cobham wasn't really the same anymore, keeping my distance from my dad as I wasn't really up for him irritating me and getting on my nerves!
                          
Kepa wasn't even on the training pitch as he was on the other one with mendy, I couldn't even just hide, only a couple of people knew what had happened, being mason, kepa, azpi and Ben, Kai and timo they where the only ones that could pick up when I was having a bad day!
                          
We had just done some light work, but Quickly went into games, I just couldn't be assed to play, just as we where about to go in my dad has stopped me.
                          
'Why have you been so distant with every these last week, what has happened' he asked
                          
'You really want to know, mum went missing 2 weeks ago and that day you came in had a massive go at me for my performance the day before, my mental health has been going through the roof and the only thing what is keeping me alive is probably kepa and knowing that my mum is still with a rapist and my dad wasn't even their for me'

                          
'Oh sweetheart come here'my dad opened out his arms for me. Crying into his chest.
                          
'Why didn't you say anything,I would of let you have a couple of week off, and I didn't even know about what happened 'him' ' 
                          
'You know what this week you can have a couple days off and if u feel up to it ok Saturday you can play but don't forcing you to play, I'm not letting you play if your mental health isn't that good, maybe a break from football will help you and you can and will make a comeback' 
                          
'No as it's the fa cup final tomorrow dad'
                          
'We will be fine, I promise you' he kissed my head and finally let me go and get changed! Kepa waited for me round the corner  as  he normal does.
                          
'Everything ok darling' he asked
                          
'Everyone is ok love' I smiled
                          
'You know I love you so much'
                          
'Yeah I know you do, I love you so much 
More than anyone mr'